This question: Indecision or am I following my organic impulses rose for me this morning as I was trying to decide about a social engagement for this week. Am I undecided or am I following my organic impulse which says ” I am not sure yet what I want or need.”
It seems we all have many commitments and things to do and places to explore and those are all wonderful. And then there is “what do I truly feel like doing”? Does it mean that because I made an appointment or commitment for a future plan that I need to keep it even if I don’t feel like doing it in present moment!”
If the plan involves others will they be disappointed? Or am I disappointing myself?
Will others be angry with me? Or will I judge by myself or be judged by them?
Will I continue to be invited?
Am I going to be left out? Not liked? Or worse NOT LOVED!
How many times have you done something when you really didn’t want to do it? Or made a phone call when you really weren’t completely prepared to talk? How often do you do something when “your heart” isn’t completely into it? Doing it just because it is expected or because “you promised?”
Everything is so fast paced and pressurized. This is my observation of the world I am living in right now. I am referring solely to me because we all come to experiences in different ways. I watch something online and reflect “why does everything have to be so fast paced”? Why can’t they give me more than a half a second to see what they are trying to present? And I don’t even own a television. Maybe this is the reason why I am so sensitive and unable to comprehend the speed of what is being flashed before my mind, my eyes and my ears. I admit I become a bit overwhelmed with all the “stuff”(advertising /marketing) that happens and at times am just not able to take a lot of things in. However you can talk to me about your emotional life and I am never overloaded.
Is it because marketing companies have deemed us to have attention deficit and they figure if they flash things quickly then we’ll buy the product or not really comprehend and just like the way the people look or the colors they are wearing or the backdrop. Because I can’t imagine that a lot of what is being shown is sinking into us in any way? Or maybe this is just me? I really don’t know anymore.
“Let’s face it: so much of what we consume is not driven by knowledge but by basic craving and impulse. The process of what we eat starts in our heads. And no one is more in our heads than a food industry that spends billions of dollars in marketing its message in every means possible.” ~Chuck Norris
What I do know is — I like things to be spoken slowly, clearly, while looking into the eyes of someone or a group of people and being acknowledged and connected. I know this won’t happen while I am watching something online but the point is that we are being bombarded with such intensity that I am imagining when we are not being bombarded we don’t know how to be together. One on One… or a few people conversing and listening to one another and then responding according.
When was the last time you actually listened to someone and heard all their words and then responded from a place of hearing what they were saying or asking a question if you didn’t quite understand what was being said?
That takes time, energy and desire to be in the presence of someone else and be connected and caring about their world.
